I am strong…

Next week I am taking my man and his son to the airport to see them off on there Greek adventure. 

I’m excited for them, but I will miss my bf terribly. I am a much stronger, mature woman now and I’m so happy that they can go explore another country. If all goes well and bf finds what he is looking for there then we will go back there together later in the year.

I love my man very much and more than anything want him to be happy 😊. In the past year I’ve learned that being selfish doesn’t make me happy, but seeing others happy helps me on my journey to true happiness. 

My love makes me happy.

E.

Week 3 Day 1…

This week I’ve started week 3 of my C25K challenge. It was a bit more challenging this time stretching the jogging intervals to 90 seconds and then 3 minutes.  The time was less , 28 minutes instead of 31. It must be a way of putting variety into the session.

Here are my results 


Less time and I still got over 4km. So I’m happy about that .

I survived 10 minutes on the dreaded stair machine… really I hate it but to build up my butt muscles it’s the best.

Sticking to my goal…

E.

Today…

I’ve been slack at posting this week gone by. 

I went to Bali for work and took bf with me, it started off amazing, then went sour for a tiny bit. After some communication we were back on the wonderful and amazing track of love ❤️. 

I’ve been on a high ever since. So happy. 

I’ve also slacked off with the gym, can’t believe it’s been a week since I’ve run in a treadmill 😐.

E.

Not PTSD…

During my psychologist appointment the other day the dr concluded that I do not suffer ptsd. Simply because I do not look over my shoulder in fear, I don’t freak out over loud noises and I don’t have dreams that cause me to feel like I’m back in the bad situation.

My “problem ” is worthlessness, low self confidence and the need to seek approval from people. Stemming from childhood.

We are going to work on building up my confidence and treating myself better. Not being afraid of making decisions for myself… I tend to overthink even the smallest things and how it is going to affect someone else( my bf, my children, my friends, my bosses etc) . I don’t want to be a disappointment which means often I miss out on things that may be good for me. 

I want nothing more than to be a confident, respected and trusted woman. 

E.