Today…

I’m so excited to be taking my teenage boys to stay at my partners house for 2 nights. I haven’t had them spend the night with me in over a year and a half. I even gave them the choice of coming and I was amazed that they both chose to join me.

My youngest 14 almost always joins me when I ask but my oldest 17 would rather do his own thing (which is normal right?).

I’m feeling good today 😊

E.

Today…

Finding out why I’m tired all of the time…

I’m sitting at the pathologist waiting for my blood test. I’ve had to fast, no food, no liquid, not even allowed to brush my teeth because of the sweet taste. They are checking my cortisol levels AM and PM today…

I’m a total wuss when it comes to blood tests, I have to lay down to have it done . I think the nurse gets annoyed because the vein is harder to find when you lay down. Even as I sat in the room waiting for the nurse to label things , I saw how many vials she got out and that’s when I start to lose color in my face:S . I should be getting used to it but every time I need a blood test it is the same. Am I the only one who has this problem?

Other tests included were for Ross River Fever , Lupus and Rheumatoid Arthritis.

To be honest I’m quite terrified of returning for another blood test this afternoon.

E.

Where do I start?

That’s just one question and there are so many to come. 

Am I really ready to start this? Can I start this? And how is this all going to unravel? 

To be totally honest I have been struggling with how to start this insanely personal journey. It’s going to be very difficult and very emotional at times (probably most of the time). I am going to be brutally honest and say exactly what I think, but I do not want this to be a “blame game“, I take full responsibility for all the choices I have made as an adult.

To be honest with you, I must be honest with myself.

So let the journey begin…

E