Loss of any kind is hard…

In the past couple of hours I heard that a wonderful , beautiful young woman who followed her dreams has passed away.

I worked with her before she left the airline industry to pursue her dream of being an Interior Designer. I was so proud of her when she told me she got the job at a well known firm(and I’ll admit, a little jealous). Even though you wouldn’t call us friends, more colleagues with an interest that bonded us. I have been truly rocked by the devastating news of her passing.

To have your life taken so quickly and without warning. To your family and your new husband, I am truly sorry for your loss. You were the most beautiful soul . RIP Yx

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Real love?

On Wednesday I had a lovely girls day with my friend P. We had a South American lunch with Sangria, then went to my local cafe for coffee and cake. Lots of girly chats and laughs. Later in the afternoon we sat in my kitchen and had a cuppa before P set off home. 

I messaged my bf and he called back on Skype, it cut out. I thought it was strange because usually when he knows I’m with a friend, he prefers that I’m not rude and msg or call him when I’m supposed to be paying attention to them.

After P left , I called my bf on Skype. I asked him why he tried calling while P was here, he said he wanted to say hi and that I should invite her and her bf for dinner sometime. He’d never mentioned meeting my friends before and it surprised me… my heart filled with love for him . 

At about 9pm I had this overwhelming urge to send my bf a message of how much I love him and I got very emotional writing it. I felt like he needed to know how I felt.

Half an hour later he called me and he was in excruciating pain… kidney stone. My baby was in so much pain and in a different country and I couldn’t help. He needed me…

He is feeling better now and continuing his holiday in Greece. I’ve never felt this way before.

I just wish my anxiety wouldn’t get in the way…

E.

I love Skype…

As you know my man is in Greece with his son on their big adventure. I miss him very much…

But, we are so lucky these days with wifi and Skype etc. I just video chat with him in an ancient town Monemvasia . I couldn’t wipe the smile off my face. I’m so happy they are having fun as father and son… even though I miss him and he wishes I was there, I would feel like I’m cutting into their yearly tradition. It’s important for sons to have that one on one time with their father. 

I’m no longer selfish like I was when I was younger. I would have resented a partners child . Now, I love that my bf loves his son very much and wants to be with him, that makes him a special man.

E.

Ms Eve loves to cook…

Carrot and walnut muffins sweetened with dates.


Ms Eve’s Moussaka 

Inspired by my bf being in Greece 🇬🇷 


I really love cooking, I’ve always been very experimental in the kitchen and get inspiration from dishes. That I then go and make up my own recipes. I should write down what I put in but most of the time I don’t measure anything, I just go by what I know tastes good.

I guess I get so busy while cooking , I forget about everything else going on in my head.

E.

Goal keeping…

I am continuing the challenge to be able to run 5km in 8 weeks.

It’s getting more difficult obviously because the running distance and time is stretched out further every week. The entire exercise only takes 30 minutes but it started at 1 1/2 min jog/ 1 1/2 min walk now it’s 5 min jog/ 3 min walk and I’m feeling it 😓. But I’m also very proud that I’m not giving up 😁. 


Thank you to all of you for your encouragement.

E.

I’ve been nominated…

Thank you to Manuela at In A Love World who nominated me. Please go check out her blog.

The rules of this award:

Acknowledge the blog who nominated you and display the award.

Answer the 11 questions the blogger gives you.

Give 11 random facts about yourself.

Nominate 11 blogs.

Notify those blogs of the nomination.

Give them 11 questions to answer

11 random facts about me

I love Harry Potter films.

I would love to live in Italy.

I want to write your next itinerary.

I am hungry all day.

I may as well have a drip in my arm filling my veins with black coffee.

Most mornings I’m up at 3:30 getting ready for work.

I’m a Royalist.

I used to sit and watch Aerobics Oz Style.

I started to like olives at the age of 33.

Anthony Bourdain is amazing.

I love a British accent ( lucky for my bf)

I nominate

Anyone who reads this post. And thank you if you’ve found my blog and followed.

I was asked

1. What is more important to you?

Trust. I need trust from others. I can’t stand not being believed.

2. What are the 3 things in nature you find most beautiful?

I’m not a huge nature person…it makes me jittery.

3. What is your most memorable moment?

Seeing the look on my bf face when I arrived in Heathrow after not seeing him for 3 weeks.

4. How you spend your free time?

At the beach with my man.

5. What makes you smile?

Every time he kisses the back of my neck.

6. What pet would you like to have at home?

none

7. Travel by plane, train, or automobile?

I’m on a plane most days. But I love traveling by plane.

8. Would you choose a free trip or money?

money. Make my own trip.

9. Would you have a night out or an evening in?

Evening in.

10. Would you go to a comedy club or dance club?

Comedy 

11. Name your 3 favorite foods?

Meat pie, croissant , souvlaki 

My questions for you

1. Country or City?

2. Camping or Hotel?

3. Do you pack to impress or to be comfortable (while traveling)?

4. Are you religious or believe in everything or nothing?

5. Do you or have you watched Day time soaps and which was your favorite?

6. Football or soccer?

7. What country were you born in, where do you live now?

8. Is your partner a different nationality to you?

9. What type of food do you like? E.g.. Thai, Japanese, Greek etc…

10. Have you been to Australia? What cities?

11. Do you meditate?

If you read my blog, consider yourself nominated. And thank you for your follows and likes and comments.

E. 

When I realised something needed to change…

After I left my husband, I was contacted by a guy I went to high school with 20 years ago. He looked ok on his fb profile and was a single father. I agreed to meet him for coffee. I remember being nervous and then thinking he was a little strange (stupidly I put it down to him being nervous too).

I saw him a few more times, he was caring and didn’t try to move the relationship to fast. I thought he was charming. He was unemployed, but said it was only until his child went to school ( I thought it was very sweet that he chose to spend time with his child before school started ). He lived in an apartment under his parents house, I was living with my cousin, so I couldn’t judge that.

I went overseas early in the relationship, he was very supportive when he left me at the airport. Halfway through the holiday he started to get jealous and mean when we spoke… I told him not to be silly . When I got back we resumed our relationship and I moved in.

He then started to get back pain and leg pain and intimate times were difficult for him. I wanted to help him, I felt like I needed to do for him what I didn’t do in my marriage . I looked after him, cared for him, spend every minute out of work with him and searched for cures.

He started to accuse me of cheating on him at work. He would ask where I had been, why I was late, why I went to work early etc…

One night there was an incident involving his child and mine and his Father told me I couldn’t have my children there anymore. So I found a house big enough for all of us. My bf refused to move in full time, he started sharing the cost of food and utilities because he was there all the time.

After 2 years of ups and downs and many screaming matches , he hit me! He would throw burning cigarettes at me, glasses of coke and spit at me.

WHY DIDN’T I LEAVE?

He had met me at a very vulnerable time, I was feeling guilty about leaving my Marriage. He knew this and started to get into my head from the very beginning. Got me to trust him and believe everything he said. 

He did it so well, I had no idea it was happening. I tell friends it was like voluntarily taking my brain out of my head and handing it over to him. I kept going back for more.

I feel so stupid now.

After leaving him I put a dvo on him and went into hiding. Work was my safe place until he tracked me down. He waited at my workplace for me to leave and then he wanted to talk, I let him… he handed me a jewellery box… Yes!! Can you believe it?!?!? He wanted to propose with a ring , I assume I paid for. I told him not to even think about it.The only time I saw him again was at court.

This is a very short version of the worst 3 years of my life.

The week I left him a woman lost her life at the hands of her jealous partner, within two weeks another two women were killed by their partners in my city . These were the ones reported on the news, since then the laws on domestic violence in Australia have changed drastically and there is no tolerance for it. I’m extremely lucky, I believe that he would have killed me sooner or later.

I now have a wonderful, caring, loving man , who I sincerely love with all my heart. 

E.