It’s been a long time…

Hi everyone, I'm sorry it's been so long since my last post.
Since then things have gone downhill, I've been very moody, depressed, strange, tired, confused, anxious, snappy and just plain unhappy 😔.
Turns out going off the contraceptive pill can do this (wish the dr had mentioned it). It's been 3 very long months of bickering and arguing with my loved ones.
I decided yesterday to see if it could be the side effects of going off the pill and low and behold I found a forum of 81 pages of women going through similar symptoms as I have and still am.
Now I know I'm feeling a little better and there's a light at the end of the tunnel. Many women say it takes about 6-8 months to get back to "normal ".
Upside: I'm off to France tomorrow morning with my love (hopefully still loves me at the end of this holiday). It's been very hard on him ( I'm sorry 😐).
Note to self… Eve you are going back to a city you love ❤️ be HAPPY 😊.
E.

Real love?

On Wednesday I had a lovely girls day with my friend P. We had a South American lunch with Sangria, then went to my local cafe for coffee and cake. Lots of girly chats and laughs. Later in the afternoon we sat in my kitchen and had a cuppa before P set off home. 

I messaged my bf and he called back on Skype, it cut out. I thought it was strange because usually when he knows I’m with a friend, he prefers that I’m not rude and msg or call him when I’m supposed to be paying attention to them.

After P left , I called my bf on Skype. I asked him why he tried calling while P was here, he said he wanted to say hi and that I should invite her and her bf for dinner sometime. He’d never mentioned meeting my friends before and it surprised me… my heart filled with love for him . 

At about 9pm I had this overwhelming urge to send my bf a message of how much I love him and I got very emotional writing it. I felt like he needed to know how I felt.

Half an hour later he called me and he was in excruciating pain… kidney stone. My baby was in so much pain and in a different country and I couldn’t help. He needed me…

He is feeling better now and continuing his holiday in Greece. I’ve never felt this way before.

I just wish my anxiety wouldn’t get in the way…

E.

Today…

Today I feel blah…

I should have written yesterday. 

Yesterday, I went to the hairdresser for the first time in over a year. I came out feeling fantastic, a little lighter in the purse 😉 but non the less fantastic and pretty. I was happy and couldn’t wait to show my new hair to my partner. He liked it :).

I feel neither sad nor happy, just plain old blah today. I got up made breakfast and dressed in nice but casual clothes for this cool autumn day here on the Sunshine Coast. Instead of heading out op shopping with my partner and his son I opted to stay home and do washing and vacuum the floors. 

I think I know why I feel this way, one week ago I went off the contraceptive pill and started taking a compounded progesterone capsule. It’s funny how you don’t realize how much your hormones change when on the pill and I’ve been on it majority of 15 years. Hopefully things start to balance soon. And hopefully the progesterone does what it’s meant too. Then that will be one less stress.

Here’s to less stress 🥂.

E.